Why I Do What I Do

Several of you have asked if I don’t get tired, where I get all of my energy, why I am always so busy, what drugs I am on (Excuse me?  Not even caffeine!), expressed some positive “things” about all of my projects, some admiration, which BTW, I appreciate.

As I was putting a drip system together so that I don’t have to go out and water everything by hand, every day, I was asking myself, “Why?” I was doing all of this and not giving up on what seemed like a hopeless cause.

I have had urgings to build grow boxes for several years.  Well, there was always something stopping me, too tired, too broke for materials, back hurting, hands hurting, didn’t feel like it, the front yard was finally filling my “need” to grow things, the excuses just went on and on.

About the time I just couldn’t push the connectors into the  ¼” tubes any longer, I wanted to finish the job tomorrow, but I couldn’t.  I knew that today was the day to finish this job.

That has been going on for months now.  I have had such strong feelings and promptings that I could not deny them.  I just knew that I had to move and move now.  Most days, I want to quit, call it good enough, I tried, that all I needed to do was “my best”, but I knew that I hadn’t reached that point and must go on.

I didn’t know why, but I knew that I needed to finish preparing our “land” to help supply for our needs.  I knew that the spirit was guiding me. 

How blessed am I to be able to recognize when a loving Heavenly Father is reaching out to me, guiding me, strengthening me and giving me courage when I hurt so badly from head to toe I just want to curl up in bed and not move for a week.

There have been days when I have been able to take it easy and rest, usually on Sunday.  I have peace of mind and can take such restful naps or tend to my calling with daily concerns pushed aside.  This was a puzzle to me until I realized that I had over done it and needed the rest and that was OK to get it.  It’s OK to take care of my health.

My heart has been so full this morning as I was thinking through all of this.  I know that the time is coming when I will more fully understand why I needed to move on all of this preparation.  I am just so grateful for the gospel.  For how hard my mom fought to make sure that my brothers and I would have this foundation to build our lives on.  That we would have the gift of the Holy Ghost to guide, comfort and strengthen us throughout our lives.  I am so blessed.