SI-I-I-I-I-GH

This after Bri helped me start, and Jackilyn decided
that everything had to come out and be sorted.
We were just starting to put it all back into the cupboards.

Jackilyn has been coming over and helping me cull, toss, donate and organize where Brianna left off.  Yesterday, she decided to take before  pictures to remind me where it all "started".  I laughed because I keep hoping that we are going to see the end of the tunnel but someone keeps moving the illusive end.

"Curse the depression!" is the main thought I keep having over and over.   Many of you who learned at the knee of depression parents will understand what I am feeling.  I am a collector, but right now with the economy as it is, it is hard to not think, "I might need this later".  I was raised with a lot of that plus I know that our income has been capped by different circumstances, so I may "regret" getting rid of stuff.  NOT, NOT, NOT!!

Would you believe that I have actually been praying over this little project reaching for a goal?  I feel that since the Lord's house is a house of order, and we should all try to follow His example in all things, so this is a righteous endeavor.  More than once, I have had to just leave the room or close my eyes, breath deep and try to start all over by clearing my mind.  Tears have been shed, more than once, usually after my "organizers" have gone home.  Don't want them to get distracted or go soft on me. I need them to be hard nosed!!

So after I figure the budget, just had a gonga car repair and get gas fumes in the van, so who knows what is coming  >:-?  Me talking to self, " At least you had the money to fix that . . . at least you had the money to fix it . . .".  Repeat after me, "  . . . . . . . ."  I will hit the piles once again.  And be grateful that I have young friends (yes my DIL is also my friend, am I lucky or what?) who have the energy, different view of life and the willingness to help this tired old dog a new trick!